Where Do I Find Myself

I remember being younger, when I started high school, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I knew I could write poetry, but I never really took it seriously. Same with my sexuality, I remember dating my first girl, I had no idea what I was doing, but I kept on until I felt comfortable. When I was dating women I was comfortable, I thought I had found myself, or at least a piece of myself, but soon myself contradicted myself… I know it sounds crazy, but I heard God call me at a young age, so when I started to consider that calling, things in my heart began to change. Things like gay marriage, I use to ask myself can I see myself married to a woman…. my answer was always no, and since it was no i would wonder what the point was. I Soon started realizing that I had not found any piece of me, but I was so lost that I wasn’t sure I could be found.

That was eight years ago, and at twenty-four I finally feel like I am finding myself, and I can only say that because God reveals my desires and passion each day. People go their whole lives and have no idea what their passions are. That is absurd. You should know what you love, and what makes you tick in your twenties, but people often times never discover what makes their eyes light up, other than their significant other. Even then they become so wrapped up in each other that one partner ends up losing their dreams, or passions because they have ignored them to support the person they love, and that is wrong! Everyone deserves to live their dream, to live out their passion, and many of us settle. God did not create life to be this way, he made us and gave us these desires and that is why we should strive to see our dreams and passions become reality.

When I meet someone I always ask them what their passion is, it helps you understand. It helps you decipher how they think, and why they see things the way they see them. Don’t believe me? Ask someone what their passion is, and look up a job that matches, then match their personality with the characteristics of that occupation, and marvel at the accuracy.

Your passion is woven into you. Human beings often feel unfulfilled in life because they are not doing what they love to do, BUT THE QUESTION BECOMES HOW DO I FIND OUT WHAT MY PASSION IS? 

ANSWER: You have got to find yourself

Please allow me enlighten you

  1. Pray and ask God to show you
  2. Seek ye first the kingdom of God
  3. Remember that you were created in his image
  4. Make a list of things you LOVE to do
  5. answer this question: What would you do for the rest of your life and not make a penny?
  6. if its nothing your too greedy to find out, lol JUST KIDDING

I did not tap into the things I love until I started tapping into God, once I started Growing in Christ my passions began to pop up, and I knew it was my passion when I was doing it for free and I felt fulfilled, I felt like I was my happiest while doing it. This discovery never really stops until you reach your destiny, everyday I learn something new about myself, I can finally say Iam discovering who God created me to be, and it is exciting yet uncomfortable, because when your on the journey to discovering you, you will also discover some ugly things, but it will work for you good, just be patient.

One of my passions is helping others find God, and through finding God, they discover their passions, dreams, desires. My only hope is that my transparency can help you find yourself through Christ, and that you discover who you are and what makes you shine.

With Love, E


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